[Texts back.] i need a friend. i dont want to be numb right now. worried
[Texts back.] no… 2nd thought i dont think i could without doing something id regret. come over?
Perfect? Going on a trip somewhere exotic and new with different foods and someone whose company I’m comfortable in. Sleep in, try new things, maybe see the beach or do some light shopping, see a show. [Shrugs.] I like taking vacations. I don’t take them as often as I’d like, but— I imagine I would again in the future. I’m just comfortable enough where I am right now.
Heh… ah, I’m not sure how to answer this. [Shrugs.] I’m not very close to a lot of people. Only one person feels important to me right now, so it’s not even a matter of most. Hm… kind of sad to put it in those words, but there it is. [Scratches his head with a slight smirk.] And anyways, the towhead knows who he is.
[Scratches his head.] Heh, yeah - I can’t say I was exactly smart back in those days. Let me just say— awkward. Not the best sort of party game to participate in, you know?Oh…………………..neat………………………..
…………………….say, have you ever played bloody knuckles?
Er, no, can’t say that I have. I’d rather keep the use of my hands, to be honest. [Smirks.] At least then I’m pretty useful. Why, is that your game of choice?
Wait, the one with the gun and the one bullet?
[Scratches his head.] Heh, yeah - I can’t say I was exactly smart back in those days. Let me just say— awkward. Not the best sort of party game to participate in, you know?
Russian roulette.
I’m not sure if I won or lost. That’s one of those games that depends on your definition, I think.
Fly.
If you mean realistically, I wish I could be in better space. [Purses his lips for a long moment before shrugging.] I can feel good sometimes, but it’s usually very fleeting. I’ve felt better than usual lately, heh. A lot better. But that’s how it always happens, small things start bringing me down and before I know it… [Scratches his cheek idly.]
It’s like being on a rock slide. I feel great at the top and can get my balance here and there, usually with someone’s help, but it’s only a matter of time before something makes me lose my footing again. [Sighs heavily.] Sometimes I worry I spend so much time in a good mood worrying myself on how I’ll end up back there that it becomes inevitable anyways.
